Hi Reader!

Randomly, I want to start this email to you by saying, "I'm so sick of Astrology borderline lying to Capricorns." LOL! I swear we keep getting these messages that Pluto is done doing something and the stars are doing something else with something and the Sun has progressed to something... and all of that means things are supposed to be more easeful for us soon.

WHEN?

Tell.
Me.
When?
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LOL!

(deep sigh)

Hi! Happy April! The newsletter usually goes out on the first of the month but April 1st came and went. And I showed up late. And I'm not going to apologize for that because Ọṣun told me something a while back that I keep coming back to:

Shame has never been a necessary component of this relationship.

I love that for me. I love that for us. That we live in a time where we are really undoing a lot of the bondage that shame used to try to hold us to. Here I am. No shame. Just a little late. Still here. Life is generous like that. As long as you're still living you can just keep living.

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Now let me tell you what else had happened.

I spent the last few weeks bulk recording 30 days of YouTube content. Thirty. Episodes. 123456789101112131415161718192021222324252627282930!!!! ​
I batched them by outfit, by day of the week, by theme, by hairstyle. I had a whole system. I was so proud of myself, I could have cried when I saw they were GONE. (insert a sad Nsync song here)

I sat with that for a minute. A few minutes. And then I picked up my phone and started over.

Because here's the thing I keep learning: in my shrine room, in the creative work, and in every place where I've had to return to something after an absence or a loss, the showing up IS the practice. Not the perfect execution. Not the content that didn't get deleted. The showing up. You just gotta keep returning. Even if the absence and the gap have been long and wide... return again and again and again.

I trust myself because I do what I say I'm going to do.

I do what I say I'm going to do because I trust myself.

That loop is the whole theology. That loop is *A Return to God in two sentences.

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So here's what I'm doing:

I am relaunching my YouTube channel — @ebonyjanicepeace — with a 100 Day Challenge starting right now. As in yesterday.

Every day for 100 days I will be posting content across seven themes:

Sunday — Ancestral and Devotional

Monday — Theology in Plain Clothes

Tuesday — Soft Girl Science

Wednesday — Love and Sovereignty

Thursday — Hip Hop Sermons

Friday — Homegirl Check-In

Saturday — Black Dreaming and The Return

This is me — a priestess, a womanist theologian, your favorite homegirl's favorite homegirl: showing up every day and talking to you like you're sitting across from me. About God. About softness. About what it means to come home to yourself. About Beyoncé and Lil' Kim as theological text. About dreams as ancestral technology. About all of it.

This is A Return to God. Out loud. On camera. For 100 days.

I would love to share this journey with you.

Subscribe here: youtube.com/ebonyjanicepeace

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And if you're in your own season of again and again and again right now - the kind where something got lost, or someone got quiet, or the thing you built disappeared before you could share it - I just want you to know:

"If at first you dont' succeed... dust yoself off and try again. You can dust it off and try again!" - Prophetess Aaliyah Houghton

That's the whole point. What you find out about yourself when you try again/try again.

I'll see you over there.

With love and without shame,

EbonyJanice

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​www.ebonyjanice.com​

​@ebonyjanicepeace on YouTube​

​@ebonyjanice on Instagram​

​Soft Sacred Sovereign on Substack​

A Return to God is a 12-month one-on-one spiritual container for Black women who are ready to come home to themselves. It is part womanist theology, part ancestral practice, part sovereignty work, and it meets you exactly where you are. I work with 2 to 3 women a year, intimately and intentionally, inside a space designed for your specific becoming.

If something in this email stirred something in you and you want to explore what deeper sovereignty work with me could look like, reply to this email and tell me what's calling you to return again and again right now. I read every reply.